I am still refusing to share the mess but I do want to share the rewards. Today is one week since the “event” and my patience is rewarded with more than crossing the 1/2 way point. I have made a lot of progress today alone and am taking a short break to share.
There are 36 skeins 80/20% merino nylon sock ready to go to River City Yarns once they are labeled and great progress on the sweater yarns (merino tweed and 100% merino) also ready to label for Make 1 Yarns. I think I have hit the hardest first and so far this afternoon alone have managed to untangle 20 skeins.
Three people have kept me company today. I was oblivious to the last sock run with a dear friend on the other end of the phone for an hour chatting about “when do you know it is right?” I don’t think we ever do, but rather we definitely know when it isn’t. The second person has no idea who I am Sook-Yin Lee from DNTO (definitely not the opera) of CBC radio. Today I was listening to her podcasts on forgiveness and on when is it good enough? Lost in my thoughts and her program podcasts took me places I hadn’t been in a long time.
Can I forgive? Without going to deep, and way too personal, the whirl of the swift and the ball of yarn in my hand gave me the patience and time to understand yes, I can forgive. After all in that very moment, by the success of the new skeins, the yarn was forgiving me.
The final person standing patiently with me today was Brenda Dayne and the Cast-on podcast (http://cast-on.com/). Brenda knows me as the Canadian sending her a skein of the Sun Filled Snow Day Yarn. She likely has no idea how her thank-you note was a gift yesterday and the impetus to carry on with what very easily could have become trash this week. I listened to podcast 30, in search of our grandmothers. Her guest essay reminded me of the gifts I have been given by my yarns and my needles. If you take a moment and listen, you may or may not hear what I heard, and that is perfectly okay.
I am looking at a stack of beautiful yarns this afternoon. The sun is peeking into the studio and I can give the last push to what was a nightmare but now I am thinking was exactly what I needed.